on our first christmas in kansas (and tasteful apartment holiday decor)

So 2011 marks the first time that Ryan and I have spent Christmas in Kansas.  This is my fifth year out here and I’ve always gone home for the winter holiday, sometimes for two weeks and in 2009 for as short as eight days (I had a housesitting job to get back to super early).  We wanted to stay in Lawrence for a few reasons this year: 1) All of our family was just out here in October for the wedding, so we’ve seen them all recently (but we still miss them, obviously); 2) Ryan’s break is significantly shorter than mine, and since we drive and it takes us a day to drive there and a day to drive back (if we don’t stop; sometimes we do) it shaves off at the very least two days we get to spend at home.  Moreover, we never get to leave town until a few days before Christmas and have to come back right after the new year, so the trip is always rushed; and 3) It costs a good chunk of money to go home, and we’ve been socking away money into a savings account ever since the wedding so it’s nice to save some cash.

I don’t know if there are two people in the world who geek out about Christmas as much as Ryan and I do.  Seriously.  We start listening to Christmas music as soon as they start playing it on the radio (and it was hopelessly LATE this year, not to mention Kansas City got rid of their best Christmas music station!)  We figured last year that we’d be staying in Kansas this year for the holidays, so we bought a fake tree at half-price after the holidays and started building our ornament and light collection.  We put our tree up early in November and did some decorating.  We take epic car trips, driving around in search of the best neighborhoods for Christmas lights.

I knew decorating an apartment for the holidays would be a bit of a challenge.  Ryan and I have a lot of furniture in our place and not a super ton of unused space.  The tree we bought had to be small enough to fit snugly in our living room, for example.  We knew we wanted to hang lights and stockings, but we had to figure out how to best maximize our space and supplies.  What follows is some documentation of how we managed to do that this year:

We have this great balcony, and we definitely wanted to do something with it.  We had these leftover twinkling icicle lights from our wedding that we figured would be perfect, and I think they look pretty neat, especially when they twinkle on and off.  Nobody else in our building put any lights up on their balcony.  Here’s a (blurry) picture that shows what it looks like from the street level:

We hung some lights inside too.  I draped a string of white lights around the curtain rod above our balcony sliding door, and draped another set around our BILLLY bookcases and BENNO tower behind the futon.

We were stumped about where to hang our cute stockings (from Target!) until I found the perfect solution: this tiny little strip of wall between the kitchen and living room.  The cat is mine!

We have some other small decorations out too.  The Snoopy plays music and lights up when you press his foot, and the snowman dish was a gift from Ryan’s grandma last year.  We went looking for an advent calendar a little too late this year so we couldn’t find any good disposable ones, but luckily we found this AWESOME wooden one from Hobby Lobby that we’ll be able to keep forever.  We put Hershey’s Kisses behind the little doors.

We don’t love being away from our families, but I have to say that this has been the most stress-free winter holiday season I’ve probably ever experienced.  Since we had to mail our family’s gifts back to Virginia, we got our shopping done super early so we could get everything sent in time.  Finishing shopping early was just about the best thing ever; I feel like I’m always stuck doing last-minute gift-buying and I really hate it, so none of that this year.  We’re headed to midnight mass in Kansas City with some friends tonight and are super excited about opening the mountain of presents under the tree and Skype-ing with our families tomorrow.

Happy holidays!


on ABD.

Oh man.  I know I definitely meant to write something here before now (has it seriously been almost an entire month?) but it just did. Not. Happen.  For about eight million reasons, but the big, huge, number one best reason ever is that I defended my oral comprehensive exams a week ago (on 12/9) and I passed them.  I am officially A.B.D. (academese for ‘all but dissertation.’)

So the exam was terrible.  It was a horrible experience.  I mean, here’s the thing.  There’s the reality of what I experienced during the exam, and then there’s the reality that my audience experienced (I had two amazing friends sit through my entire defense), and then there’s the reality that my adviser/committee experienced.  Throughout most of the exam, I felt like I was crashing and burning.  Failing with a capital F-A-I-L.  One of my theses straight up fell APART.  What was supposed to be a defensible position just turned out to SUCK.  That was the case, objectively.  So while I’m experiencing this crash and burn fail thesis reality, I’m believing the whole time that I’m just going to fail.  I guess, though, the committee thought I did an okay job of both trying to defend an indefensible position and realizing why it was indefensible.  I did a great job defending the other thesis though (according to my adviser—in hindsight I can admit it), and did a pretty average defense of my dissertation prospectus.  I got nailed on a really fundamental question, and I was so shaken from having bombed my second thesis that I just could not articulate a coherent answer, and I know it looked pretty bad.  All in all it was a grand total of about 2 hrs and 10 minutes of answering an onslaught of question after question after question; I left the seminar room with Crystal and Kate and waited about ten minutes before my adviser came and got me and brought me back to the room, where everyone congratulated me.  I was so numb afterward I could barely stand.

I’m sure this is a foregone conclusion, but I am NEVER going to put myself through a process like that again.  My colleagues and I have this theory that the dissertation defense is MUCH easier—you’re not expected to talk about anything outside of your research area (like those silly theses had to be), and it’s on a topic you’ve spent months (and probably a year or more) working on.  Comps was AWFUL.  I was sick to my stomach and a walking bundle of nerves for the entire week beforehand.  The relief I experienced once it was over was god damn glorious, but it was pretty fleeting, all told.  The best part of the whole day wasn’t when my adviser told me I passed, but rather when Ryan came to pick me up holding a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a congratulatory card, which he had purchased well in advance of me telling him that I passed.  I know I say this all the time, but I married the greatest person in the whole world.  So I had a great weekend relaxing and celebrating: the four of us who defended in the same week all went out with some of our colleagues and hit a few bars downtown mere hours after my defense, and that weekend I slept better than I had in MONTHS.  Now I’m taking a short break from research (about three weeks) and then come January I’ll be back to the grind, working on a draft of the first paper for my dissertation.

What’s so great about being done with comps is that the dissertation seems totally possible now.  I feel like I’ve jumped over the last really scary hurdle—now I can busy myself doing something I am pretty good at: writing and researching.  Whew.

One of the not-great things about being done with such a big thing is that my brain has wanted to shut down for the entire last week, but unfortunately, I currently have a stack of final exams to grade and I had a French exam to study for (took that this morning and am pretty sure I did fine).  I gave my final on Wednesday night and I have to say, I’m seriously going to miss this batch of students.  This semester I got to hang out with a really great group of people and learn a ton from some insanely smart people—the end of the semester is always sort of bittersweet, and this semester seems especially so because of the caliber of students I had.

I will have another forthcoming update (before the holidays! I promise) about Christmas-type stuff.  There’s so much going on and I’m having enough trouble keeping it all straight in my own head, but I need to try to keep writing in here to provide a mostly-accurate account of the day-to-day for the sake of my ever-decreasing memory.  Tonight I’m baking a cheesecake for the annual girl’s Christmas party (though my gaggle of girlfriends is missing a couple of its core members this year—hi Mindy and Dez!)  We have two farm shares left to pick up before the winter share ends.  I am really looking forward to kicking back and having a stress-free holiday in Lawrence.


on a whirlwind fall.

These last few weeks have been a complete whirlwind.  I don’t even know how to begin to summarize things, so I’ll start in a sort of round-about way.  Most of what has been going on has been school-related, which I’ll discuss momentarily.  But I did have a really great birthday celebration last week.  I love how seriously Ryan takes my birthday; I got a bunch of really neat gifts, and we’re still working on the giant ice cream cake in the freezer.  A birthday smack-dab in the middle of the week in a really difficult time had the potential to be a disaster, but it ended up being pretty awesome.  So there’s that.

I am currently in the middle of one of the most difficult semesters I’ve ever had in 4+ years of grad school.  In exactly three weeks I will orally defend my comprehensive exams; people in academia know specifically how big of a deal this is, and even people disconnected from the process (like my mother) can grasp that I’m under an unusual amount of stress lately.  For the most part, I think I handle it well.  There have been some hiccups in the process and a lot of patience-trying ventures in the past few months—but really, the worst part has been dealing with a bunch of ridiculous bureaucracy.  I tell my friends all the time that I really and truly believe that the people who end up finishing their Ph.D.s are not necessarily the smartest people, but they are the people who have the highest tolerance levels for bullshit—because there’s a lot of it involved in the process.  There are people much smarter than me who will never finish their advanced degrees, because they will inevitably get fed up with all of the hoops they have to jump through.  I excel at jumping through hoops and meeting deadlines and working hard; it doesn’t mean I’m the smartest person, it just means that I am pretty good at navigating bureaucracy and dealing with incompetence and frustration at every level in the process.  Things go great for me when all of the responsibility is mine; when I have to do the research, and write the draft, and make the edits—it all gets done and it all gets done on time.  But I am a control-freak, and I still have trouble believing that I can’t control the rest of the universe.  So when I run into a bunch of red tape, and faculty members who don’t answer e-mails, and scheduling mishaps and vague rules and regulations and lost or mis-filed paperwork, I understandably get pretty annoyed.  Unfortunately, I’ve been dealing with a lot of the above lately; fortunately, the majority of it should be behind me now.  I feel like the entire process of preparing to defend my comprehensive exams has been a useful learning experience regarding the slow-moving wheels of bureaucracy and a bunch of incompetence in university administration.

Without going into detail about any of the bullshit, here is what has been going on with my comps.  I finished the drafts of my dissertation prospectus and two theses (all of which I will orally defend in my exam), and sent them out to my committee.  The committee members returned the drafts with comments and suggestions for changes, and I had about 48 hours to make the changes and resubmit the documents for approval.  The documents were approved shortly thereafter, and then it was time for phase 2, wherein my documents got sent out to the entire department for review.  Once I made it to phase 2, I was able to schedule my exam, for no sooner than three weeks after the documents had circulated through the department.  The exam has been scheduled, and now I am in the process of waiting for comments from the rest of the faculty; upon receiving comments, my adviser and I will discuss any changes I should make prior to the defense.

I need to spend the next few weeks preparing for my defense, in addition to studying for my language competency exam in French.  My translation skills are still pretty solid but my verb conjugation skills have devolved pretty atrociously, so I know what I need to practice, though I still don’t believe the exam will be excessively difficult.  A bunch of my colleagues are defending around the same time so we’re planning a huge party during finals week, which I definitely can’t wait for.  I’m also getting really excited for Thanksgiving: Ryan and I are hosting a few friends this year and I can’t wait to get in the kitchen and start cooking a giant feast.

We’ve had our Christmas tree up for a little while already now; it’s difficult to get a good photograph of it, but I think it looks pretty nice.  It’s a small-ish, simple tree; perfect for our cozy apartment and it looks really nice lit up at night.  I want to do some more decorating around here soon; I’ll post photos as soon as I finish.


on halloween, 2011.

I don’t have much to say, but I feel compelled to update since I’m in this weird place where I have a bunch of free time until my committee returns comments on my drafts (and not a lot to do until then).  It’s almost like I have temporarily forgotten how to relax—this past weekend I felt sort of uncomfortable not doing much of anything.  This is very different, of course, from summer or winter breaks (because those are actual breaks); this just feels like the calm before the storm or the eye of the hurricane.  Things will be happening pretty rapidly after next Monday and they won’t slow down until after my defense, so I guess I should rest while I can.

Ryan is in class tonight.  We’re not terribly interested in Halloween, save for pillaging for discounted leftover candy at the grocery store.  We did carve that pumpkin we acquired on our trip to the pumpkin patch that I posted about last time, with some pretty hilarious results.  Here is the pumpkin (ours is the smaller one on the left) after we carved it and before we set it out on our balcony last weekend (the one on the right is the Cartman pumpkin that our friend carved):

It didn’t turn out too badly, especially for my first time really carving a pumpkin.  The eyes are pretty crooked but I thought we did alright on the mouth, at least.  He did look pretty menacing lit up at night:

Our poor jack-o-lantern was no match for the squirrels who haunt our balcony, however.  After just one night outside, this is what those little bastards did to our creation:

Pretty hilarious, right?  Ryan and I couldn’t stop laughing when we saw it.  The squirrels massacred the jack-o-lantern and made it look a hell-of-a-lot scarier than we were able to.  It collapsed a day or so later, so our first jack-o-lantern experiment together wasn’t a success.  Oh well, we had fun picking out and carving the pumpkin and toasting the seeds.  Last weekend we also had a blast at the homecoming game at Ryan’s school.  They lost the game, but I love meeting his students and listening to the marching band play.  Those kids are incredibly talented.

In other news, my birthday is in about a week and I can’t wait to eat sushi and ice cream.  I’m teaching that afternoon so I may bring some treats in for the class—if a) I feel like it, and b) my students don’t piss me off this week.


on fall.

On big things: Ryan and I have been married for nine days.  Fall semester is halfway over.  Life is awesome.

Marriage is great, and the wedding was amazing.  It was so wonderful to spend time with so many friends and family members who came in from out of town.  I am eventually going to make a giant post (or, perhaps, a series of posts) about the wedding itself; some people have expressed some interest in having access to the readings we used for the ceremony, and I think it’d be useful for posterity and resourceful for anyone else who stumbles upon this to see how we approached things and put together a really nice wedding ceremony for not a ton of money.  So that’ll come at some point in the future.

Things are finally starting to look a little more autumn-like around eastern Kansas.  Today I woke up to a cool, cloudy day—the best kind of day to not have to go to work (I’m off on Mondays this semester).  The photos above are from our trip last Friday with some friends to Schaake’s Pumpkin Patch here on the edge of town.  I probably complain a lot about living out here, but I do enjoy doing Midwestern-y type fun things like that every now and again.  It doesn’t quite make up for being 1200 miles from the Atlantic Ocean, but it’s nice nonetheless.  Ryan and I found the perfect pumpkin (the one I’m holding in the photo) that we’re going to carve up this week and place on our balcony.  Our farm share has been chock full of sweet potatoes, sweet peppers, and greens for the past few weeks.  Yesterday, Ryan and I took a picnic lunch on a bike trip to Potter Lake on campus.  We had to fight some serious wind to get up Mount Oread but the sun was shining and we rode our bikes all over campus.  Ryan bought this sweet cruiser a couple of weeks ago and my vintage 10-speed Free Spirit is still going strong.

The wedding was fantastic, but it’s nice to have it over and done with so I can start working again.  I sent off a draft this morning that will hopefully be close enough to the version I will be sending out to my committee soon.  I’m slowly working on grading a stack of midterms so I can enjoy a break of about a month without any grading to worry about.  This is my favorite time of year because of all of the fun in the coming weeks: my birthday, Thanksgiving, and Christmas.  I’m cooking a giant feast for Thanksgiving this year, and Ryan and I are staying in Lawrence for the winter holiday for probably the first and last time for a while—I haven’t been able to shut up about how excited I am about our first Christmas tree together, which I think we decided will go up on November 1st.  Postseason baseball is about the only disappointment in my life these days.  For some reason, I cannot force myself to care about the Rangers after cheering for the Tigers and the Brew Crew.

At the urging of my brother (who somehow just knows about these things) I made peace with the little squirrels who kept chewing on the plants on my balcony; I’m feeding the little rodents peanuts now in hopes that they will leave my plants alone.  It seems to have worked so far.


on the semester of comprehensive exams.

I suppose it’s not terribly surprising that I haven’t had anything to say here in almost a month.  I told Dez I’m trying to say more things here but this fall has been overwhelmingly busy so far—luckily life will inevitably slow down after the wedding, and I’ll get a break after I finish grading the first set of essays (which will happen TODAY) and administer a midterm within the next few weeks.  I had a really positive meeting with my dissertation adviser yesterday; suffice it to say that all of that work is going really well right now.  The nature of what I’m doing this semester (writing my dissertation prospectus and preparing to defend my comprehensive exams) requires a lot of front-loaded work: writing and editing drafts of the prospectus, crafting the theses I plan on defending, finishing my language requirement, cobbling together my committee, and preparing as best as I can for the defense.  Once my packet is sent to the committee, they get a few weeks to review it, and my adviser and I will talk about whether I need to incorporate any of their suggestions.  Then the packet gets circulated through the rest of the department; rinse and repeat.  Then I (gulp) orally defend it all, hopefully before Thanksgiving but definitely by the first week of December.  And then I can breathe for a few weeks.

I’ve been thinking about this list that someone is compiling titled 100 reasons not to go to graduate school.  This list wasn’t around when I was thinking about applying to grad school.  Going into my fifth year, there’s certainly a lot on the list that’s true.  I would be lying if I said my undergraduate mentors hadn’t warned me about a lot of this before I embarked on this path, but I weighed my options and decided to give it a shot.  I’m pretty glad that I did at this point in my life—I may be singing a different tune on the job market in a few years, but I’m in a good place now.  Coursework was mind-numbing at times, but I finished it all and moved on to work on a project that’s very important to me (bonus: it has real-world implications as well.  Suck it, ivory tower!)  Things are stressful sometimes.  Goodness knows this semester is one of the more stressful ones I’ve had.  I’m handling things and doing fine.  I’m lucky to have a great partner who gives endless amounts of emotional support and I’m lucky enough to be the kind of person that can thrive in a stressful environment, I guess.

As September turns into October, there are a ton of cool and exciting things on the horizon.  Mostly I’m excited to see our families and friends next week and to have a giant party and marry the person I love.  There’s a month of postseason baseball to look forward to, sweaters to pull out of the closet (eventually; it’s still 80° here in Lawrence), bike rides and walks to go on, and hokey Midwestern fall festivals to visit.  I am getting more sleep this semester than I have in over four years, and it’s glorious.


on short stories, again.

This is part three of my series about the 100-short story challenge.  Part one (the list of stories) is here and part two (the top ten stories) is here.

I didn’t start the 100-short story challenge this year with a clear plan.  I had some ideas about stories I’d been meaning to read and authors I’d been told to check out, but that was it.  There were some canonical stories that I felt kind of silly for not having read, and Ryan and I had started amassing literature anthologies in preparation for the challenge, so sometimes I’d pick up an anthology and flip to something that looked good.  Sometimes I’d pick something out of an anthology based on length if I only had a few minutes.  I’d pick up whatever I was in the mood for at the moment, which is why the ending list reflected quite accurately my literary preferences of 20th century American literature.  Looking at the final list, I was surprised by what was missing: some big names like Faulkner, Fitzgerald, Hemingway, and Vonnegut.  I can’t believe I got through one hundred short stories without reading a single one of Vonnegut’s stories—and certainly not because I didn’t want to re-read any.  In fact, I’ve only read ONE in my life, but I love Vonnegut’s novels.  Ditto for Hemingway: I’ve read exactly one short story of his (though I don’t love his novels).  I’ve read a handful of Fitzgerald’s stories and one of Faulkner’s.  I can speculate about why I didn’t read any this year, but I really don’t know.  So my first goal next year is to 1) read some more canonical stories by some more canonical writers.

The second thing about the final list that troubles me is that it’s very focused on the second half of the 20th century.  Ryan and I have discussed whether there’s much worth reading pre-20th century in terms of the short story genre; goal 2) then is to try and explore some earlier stories.  At the very least I need to spend some time in the first half of the 20th century, but I’d like to look at some 19th century works as well.  I have Mark Twain in mind here but I’d love some more recommendations if anyone is willing to give any.

Not a good amount of world literature was represented.  I’m not sure if that’s a goal I’m particularly interested in working on right away but I’m certainly open to suggestions from anyone who’s willing to give them.

Then there’s goal 3); There are a handful of authors that I’m definitely interested in reading more from next year.  Some of them are Andre Dubus, Aimee Bender, Annie Proulx, and Ralph Ellison.  I didn’t get to read any Ray Bradbury this year and I like what I’ve read by him in the past, so he’s on the list as well.  I’d like to say I won’t go on a bunch of these binges where I’ll knock out an entire collection of stories by one author but that’s something I really can’t help doing; when I find a writer I like I tend to want to devour everything I can find by that writer.  I think for now I’ll leave it at these three goals and start working on a comprehensive plan for next year’s challenge so on January 1st, I can hit the ground running.

So that’s it, I suppose, as far as weaknesses and goals to work on next year.  I loved the challenge and I would recommend it to anyone who likes to read but doesn’t have huge chunks of time to devote to reading a bunch of novels throughout the year.  Short stories are great for me because I can read them on the bus or between classes, or I can knock out one or two at night before I go to bed.  Hell, if you read two stories a week, you’d hit 100 by the end of the year.  Pick up a few collections from the library and just make your way through them.  I thought this challenge was perfect because it kept me thinking about and appreciating literature despite being knee-deep in coursework and dissertation research.  I can’t wait to start next year.   Questions and comments and thoughts about the challenge or my approach are always welcome.

 


on the best of one hundred short stories.

The background for the short story challenge and the complete list of short stories I read in 2011 is located in the last post.  Of all of the stories I read this year, some very clearly stood out to me from the rest of the pack as particularly moving, or memorable, or profound.  The ten best stories, based largely on my own intuitions/feelings/preferences, are as follows:

  1. In the Cemetery Where Al Jolson Is Buried,” Amy Hempel (1983)
  2. “King of the Bingo Game,” Ralph Ellison (1944)
  3. Cathedral,” Raymond Carver (1983)
  4. Everything That Rises Must Converge,” Flannery O’Connor (1965)
  5. What You Pawn I Will Redeem,” Sherman Alexie (2003)
  6. “Cadillac Flambé,” Ralph Ellison (1973)
  7. “How to Talk to Your Mother (Notes),” Lorrie Moore (1985)
  8. “A Temporary Matter,” Jhumpa Lahiri (1999)
  9. “The Fat Girl,” Andre Dubus (1977)
  10. “How I Contemplated the World From the Detroit House of Correction and Began My Life Over Again,” Joyce Carol Oates (1969)

I thought about scaling down the larger list for quite a while and put more than a bit of thought into the choices I’ve made.  Ryan and I had some great conversations about some of the stories and about the genre in general; we talked about what makes great literature great and what makes some literature better than other literature (FYI: I am not a student of English literature—Ryan is, and he’s very good at what he does—I certainly feel less qualified to talk about and analyze fiction, because I teach a “great books” course where we read very little fiction).  Nothing I say about this list will probably be particularly insightful in terms of literary analysis, but I do feel compelled to justify my choices.

There are some pretty interesting things to be said about this list just from my initial observation.  The dates of publication, for one thing: with the exception of the Alexie story, the remaining nine are 20th century, and eight are from the second half of the 20th century alone.  This is in part due to the fact that I didn’t really read any stories that were published before the 20th century—which I definitely didn’t realize until I looked at the entire list at the end of the challenge.  Ryan’s belief is that the short story as a genre existed as sort of a microcosm in the 20th century and that it’s a dying genre in the 21st century.  I have a strong preference for 20th century American literature in general, which explains my choices for the challenge in the first place.  Another interesting fact is that the list is slightly lopsided in terms of male and female writers;  Ralph Ellison has two stories in the top ten because I really couldn’t choose between the two.  The disparity in gender here is, I believe, unintentional, and in part a result of having read a collection by Amy Hempel and one and a half collections by Lorrie Moore, but I’d need to look more closely at the list to see what the breakdown of male/female writers was exactly.

As for the stories themselves, one striking thing is that I read a few of what became the top stories pretty early on in the challenge.  “In the Cemetery Where Al Jolson is Buried” was easily the best story I read this year; I suspected it might be my favorite shortly after reading it and sure enough, nothing else came close.  It is probably the saddest thing I have ever read, and it left me with such a profound feeling of emptiness when I finished it and that feeling just refused to leave.  What really struck me about it was how I couldn’t stop thinking about it for days and weeks later.  I’d be in the middle of washing dishes and think of a scene from that story and feel this hollow, sinking feeling in the bottom of my stomach.   That story will stay with me forever, I’m sure of it.

I legitimately could not choose between the two Ralph Ellison stories.  Ryan can vouch for the fact that I wouldn’t shut up about “King of the Bingo Game” for weeks after I read it, and that story began an obsession with Ralph Ellison’s work that currently remains as I trudge through Invisible Man now.  There is absolutely nothing I can say about Ellison’s work that even borders on helpful or intelligent, but I started reading both of these stories with a tenuous grip on reality, and somewhere in each story that reality was yanked out from underneath my feet by Ellison’s masterful prose.  He builds up to these incredible explosions in the narrative and I re-read and re-read parts to make sure I understand what’s happening.  Both stories are nothing short of amazing.  I read several great Flannery O’Connor stories this year, but “Everything That Rises Must Converge” was, I think, her best showing in this challenge (I did not read “A Good Man Is Hard To Find,” which is oft-cited and of course is really great, but I wanted to read mostly new-to-me stories).  Like Ellison, she builds up to a single defining moment with a fantastic crescendo.  She so accurately captures the human condition in this one and it packs such a wicked punch.

I discovered Lorrie Moore this year and quickly devoured a ton of her stories; most of them were good but I still loved the first one I read by her the best; it was raw and real.  The Sherman Alexie story was a recommendation of Ryan’s; Alexie weaves a masterful narrative in this one and it is so heartbreakingly happy and sad all at once that I think about it often.  “Cathedral” is a masterpiece; I can’t say anything else about it at all.   The final three on the list were tough choices (at least in that I settled the first seven pretty quickly but had to think longer about the final three) but after mulling it over it seemed quite obvious that the Joyce Carol Oates story belonged in the top ten: I read it early on but it still left a pretty solid impression and convinced me that Oates is worthy of a second glance (her widely anthologized “Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been?” is also missing for the same reason that “A Good Man is Hard To Find” is).  I don’t know why I didn’t try to get my hands on more by Andre Dubus (goals for next year are coming in a future post) but I thought this selection was quite good.  I’m surprised  he doesn’t show up in more collections.  And finally, the Jhumpa Lahiri story, while I read it pretty late in the challenge when I finally decided to pick up the copy of Interpreter of Maladies that had been sitting on my shelf for a while, left me with a similar empty sadness that Amy Hempel’s work did.

So there they are.  I read some amazing short stories this year.  One thing I learned from this challenge is that stories that are highly anthologized generally are the best representations of the genre.  It sounds obvious, but I’m taught to both teach from a canon and simultaneously question that canon.  I am suspicious of anthologies because of what gets put in them and what gets left out of them: but there is a reason that “Cathedral” shows up in so many literature textbooks and anthologies.  It is that fucking good.  I am taking a break from short stories for the remainder of this year in hopes of knocking out a few longer projects (cough: Invisible Man) but I’m looking forward to taking the challenge again next year.  In the final post of this three-part series I’ll outline some of the goals I have for next year’s challenge and list some of the authors I plan on reading then.


on one hundred short stories.

So Ryan participates in this thing called the 50 Book Challenge every year where the goal is simple: read 50 books in a year.  I love the idea, but graduate school doesn’t leave me with a ton of time to commit to recreational reading throughout the school year, and during the summer we’re too busy traveling and vacationing for me to read 50 books.  It’s not like I don’t spend most of my year reading, but it’s reading for my dissertation and before that it was reading for classes and no, most of that reading isn’t what I’d call fun and I definitely don’t want to count any of it in a book challenge.  Thus the 100 Short Story Challenge.  Ryan and I conceived of the idea late last year after we had developed a penchant for collecting literature anthologies and upon marveling at some of the oft-anthologized short stories that we hadn’t read, we decided to set a goal.  He got a few of his friends on board and we created a Google Doc to keep track of what we were all reading.  In early September, I hit 100 stories.  What follows in this post is the list of stories I read this year in order of reading; in the next post I will list my top ten short stories from this year’s challenge.  Without further ado, here it is: (format is “Title,” Author).

  1. “Entropy,” Thomas Pynchon
  2. “Recitatif,” Toni Morrison
  3. “How I Contemplated the World From the Detroit House of Correction and Began My Life Over Again,” Joyce Carol Oates
  4. “King of the Bingo Game,” Ralph Ellison
  5. “Everything That Rises Must Converge,” Flannery O’Connor
  6. “In the Cemetery Where Al Jolson is Buried,” Amy Hempel
  7. “A Party Down at the Square,” Ralph Ellison
  8. “Wants,” Grace Paley
  9. “In the American Society,” Gish Jen
  10. “Blood and Water,” Banana Yoshimoto
  11. “A Strange Tale from Down by the River,” Banana Yoshimoto
  12. “Happy Endings,” Margaret Atwood
  13. “Birthmates,” Gish Jen
  14. “How to Talk to Your Mother (Notes),” Lorrie Moore
  15. “Job History,” Annie Proulx
  16. “The Professor’s Houses,” Ursula K. Le Guin
  17. “You’re Ugly, Too,” Lorrie Moore
  18. “A City of Churches,” Donald Barthelme
  19. “True Love,” Don Shea
  20. “At the Seminary,” Joyce Carol Oates
  21. “San Francisco,” Amy Hempel
  22. “Charades,” Lorrie Moore
  23. “The Fat Girl,” Andre Dubus
  24. “Cathedral,” Raymond Carver
  25. “The Story of an Hour,” Kate Chopin
  26. “The Other Wife,” Colette
  27. “What You Pawn I Will Redeem,” Sherman Alexie
  28. “Two Boys,” Lorrie Moore
  29. “Willing,” Lorrie Moore
  30. “Which Is More Than I Can Say About Some People,” Lorrie Moore
  31. “Dance in America,” Lorrie Moore
  32. “Community Life,” Lorrie Moore
  33. “Accomplished Desires,” Joyce Carol Oates
  34. “Joy,” Lorrie Moore
  35. “Starving Again,” Lorrie Moore
  36. “Places to Look for Your Mind,” Lorrie Moore
  37. “Agnes of Iowa,” Lorrie Moore
  38. “Four Calling Birds, Three French Hens,” Lorrie Moore
  39. “Beautiful Grade,” Lorrie Moore
  40. “Bohemians,” George Saunders
  41. “Revelation,” Flannery O’Connor
  42. “Sisters of the Moon,” Jennifer Egan
  43. “Class Trip,” Victor D. LaValle
  44. “The School,” Donald Barthelme
  45. “Boys,” Rick Moody
  46. “The House on Mango Street,” Sandra Cisneros
  47. “Story,” Lydia Davis
  48. “Exodus,” James Baldwin
  49. “Satan: Hijacker of a Planet,” Louise Erdrich
  50. “Redemption,” John Gardner
  51. “Parker’s Back,” Flannery O’Connor
  52. “Cadillac Flambé,” Ralph Ellison
  53. “A Conversation with my Father,” Grace Paley
  54. “Mericans,” Sandra Cisneros
  55. “The Jewish Hunter,” Lorrie Moore
  56. “Like Life,” Lorrie Moore
  57. “Daylight Come,” Amy Hempel
  58. “The Case of the Salt and Pepper Shakers,” Aimee Bender
  59. “The Most Girl Part of You,” Amy Hempel
  60. “Rapture of the Deep,” Amy Hempel
  61. “Du Jour,” Amy Hempel
  62. “Murder,” Amy Hempel
  63. “A Perfect Day for Bananafish,” J.D. Salinger
  64. “Flying Home,” Ralph Ellison
  65. “Intimacy,” Raymond Carver
  66. “Fat,” Raymond Carver
  67. “The Student’s Wife,” Raymond Carver
  68. “Neighbors,” Raymond Carver
  69. “The Life You Save May Be Your Own,” Flannery O’Connor
  70. “A Temporary Matter,” Jhumpa Lahiri
  71. “What We Talk About When We Talk About Love,” Raymond Carver
  72. “Motherfucker,” Aimee Bender
  73. “The Day I Had Everything,” Amy Hempel
  74. “To Those Of You Who Missed Your Connecting Flights Out of O’Hare,” Amy Hempel
  75. “And Lead Us Not Into Penn Station,” Amy Hempel
  76. “In the Animal Shelter,” Amy Hempel
  77. “At the Gates of the Animal Kingdom,” Amy Hempel
  78. “Vitamins,” Raymond Carver
  79. “The Lady Will Have the Slug Louie,” Amy Hempel
  80. “Under No Moon,” Amy Hempel
  81. “The Center,” Amy Hempel
  82. “A Coupla Scalped Indians,” Ralph Ellison
  83. “Strong Horse Tea,” Alice Walker
  84. “Sonny’s Not Blue,” Sam Greenlee
  85. “Mother,” Grace Paley
  86. “Say Yes,” Tobias Wolff
  87. “The Hit Man,” T. Coraghessan Boyle
  88. “They’re Not Your Husband,” Raymond Carver
  89. “What Do You Do In San Francisco?,” Raymond Carver
  90. “Tom-Rock Through the Eels,” Amy Hempel
  91. “The Rest of God,” Amy Hempel
  92. “Where I’m Calling From,” Raymond Carver
  93. “When Mr. Pirzada Came to Dine,” Jhumpa Lahiri
  94. “Interpreter of Maladies,” Jhumpa Lahiri
  95. “Yours,” Mary Robison
  96. “I See You Never,” Ray Bradbury
  97. “Judgment Day,” Flannery O’Connor
  98. “Do Not Go Gentle,” Sherman Alexie
  99. “Hellhole,” Annie Proulx
  100. “Bullet in the Brain,” Tobias Wolff

on potential disaster, irene, and remembering isabel.

Eight years ago, I was nineteen years old (almost twenty).  I was separated from my ex-husband and living with my folks while I sorted my life out (nineteen either seems really old or really young to have to sort your life out, right?)  Over the summer I had started a new job as a chef and I was getting ready to start another semester at ODU.  When the hype around Hurricane Isabel started to grow, I high-tailed it out of town and headed out to Charlottesville for a little while in hopes of avoiding some of the damage, but I ended up having to deal with a lot more than I bargained for when I had to drive home IN THE HURRICANE, since my boss wouldn’t give official word that we’d be closed for the storm.  I think I stopped in Richmond and then got into an accident on the way home to Norfolk.  By the time I rolled back into town the storm was over but the power at my parents’ house was out for ten whole days.  I took a lot of cold showers.  The restaurant re-opened as soon as the power came back out there.  I got the windshield in the Beast replaced.  Life went on.  Sadie and I drove to Chapel Hill later that year to see Guided by Voices for my 20th birthday.

I don’t miss the mandatory evacuations, the empty aisles at the grocery stores, the scrambling to find flashlight batteries and matches for candles and figuring out what to eat from the stuff in the fridge that’s inevitably going to spoil.  I don’t miss flooding, I don’t miss school being closed for days, I don’t miss listening to the radio for news and I damn sure don’t miss August without air conditioning.  What I miss is the buildup to the storm; the flurry of activity, waiting for the action.  And I miss the storms.  I am going into my fifth year in Kansas now and despite the awesome and majestic quality of a thunderstorm rolling across the plains, there is nothing in the world that looks or feels or smells like a hurricane or a tropical storm.  I miss that feeling of being dwarfed by nature; I miss walking outside during the eye of the storm to survey the damage and the smell of the air when the rest of the storm is on the way.  I miss the precarious life less than 20 miles from the Atlantic Ocean.  I miss being with my family during the crazy times.

Ryan and I will be checking on everyone throughout the weekend; my mom is staying put and I think his family is, too.  I’m keeping everyone back home in my thoughts for now.


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